just like any other.

fudge lah. everything seems to have fallen into the wrong places.

no, that's not it.

i feel like crying for god's sake sumpah rasa nak menjerit if only dunia ni saya yang punya. on second thot, if the world was mine, there's no need to do all the screaming and yelling. i'd be able to do anything and be anyone i want.

kenapa manusia pelik sangat. banyak sangat ragam sakit kepala tau. but yeah, when orang cakap "tak bole masuk" tu, tak payah la nak try baik baik sangat. sebab memang tak jadi apa pon and tak membuahkan hasil. banyak pretentious and fake faces. rasa macam ew talam dua muka hate that!

u'd meet different types of people with distinct personalities and a lot of misjudgments and miscalculations "ooops sorryyy wrong info *chuckles* ". mengumpat sana sini. yeah itu manusia. orang melayu kita.

pastu buat benda diam diam. senyap senyap. "sshhh don't let them know". godddd annoyed gila. terasa ok. i'm a human too. what is up with you people. korang ni memang la. tau sebab apa you all macam tu? buat bende yang menyakitkan hati orang secara sengaja. do u know why? sebab the way you people received your elementary till tertiary education from small. formal and informal. cara korang dibesarkan the way you people were raised are different to compare to mine. i know, at times, i say things yang boleh buat orang terasa. tapi berdasarkan fakta atau bende tu i feel like i should, so be it. tapi ni korang buat mmg intentionally nak sakitkan hati orang lain just because u dont get what you want and u're not satisfied enough. so korang guna cara yang almost kotor. kena ke? tak pikir what are the consequences? come on man. put my situation in your shoes. u think i wanna stand where i'm standing now sangat ke? please, steal some of your time and go think lama lama skit. pikir cepat sangat takde long term goals macam mane nak berjaya. bengong. sorry lah tapi memang its true.

hah and the best part is, i can't do anything about it. sebab korang assets. kalau liability dah lame dah ......... urghhhh. fed-up. hari hari macam ni. takde sense of achievement and satisfaction. eh wait. takde la asset "asset". liability gak. cume almost an asset sebab tu kena jaga, kena value. tu yang sakit hati tu.


"Ya Allah. . sesungguhnya aku ini hambaMu yang lemah dan berdosa Ya Allah. . namun aku pohon kepadaMu Ya Tuhanku. . Kau berilah aku kekuatan untuk aku menempuhi segala cabaran dan dugaan hidup ini Ya Allah. . sesungguhnya manusia ini diciptakan pelbagai jenis dan sifat. . berilah aku kesabaran. . kuatkanlah imanku dan aku mohon kepadaMu Ya Allah. . janganlah Engkau menarik imanku apabila Engkau telah memberiku cahaya keimanan. . Amiin. ."




n.y.z.a.z.
23 february 2010
12:52am