life is such. .

wat i found out a few hours back never crossed my mind.
it never occured to me dat he would still has even a slight interest to view my profile on friendster. wow. afta all these years. . i hate the fact that he was the first. i hate it. so much. and i regretted it. hermm. . one of the thousand things that i regret in life. this is listed as top 10. or maybe, it could just be no 1. please god. . give me strength. i am after all just a human being. let me fall for someone that will make me happy for good. hurt is what i've been keeping away from. i'm blessed i have beautiful friends around to stray me from thinking of the past. especially dee. i love her. my best friend ever. i love my family. and i love my friends. and i want to thank them for being there. thank you. . and please, i'm not thinking of him in a good way like missing him. that would never happen even in million years. it's just that i'm thinking of myself in the past. the fact that i should've been more aware of my surrounding and the people in it. that's all. reminiscing could be sick.